Author's note: The review that follows was posted in January 2020. I'm reposting it here in memory of Charlene Imhoff Dividson who passed away December 18, 2023. That's her in the picture below, second from the right--beautiful, talented, and a dear, sweet friend. Rest in peace, Sis.
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Wednesday, December 20, 2023
Friday, December 1, 2023
Quick Eddie
Things were going like clockwork that Saturday night. There had been some guys who wanted to try their luck and ended up donating lots of money. Pete was sipping beer and going to his flask and getting louder and louder. And finally, everybody was out but Eddie and the money was all in. Pete tanked a few shots and Eddie won the big pot. The beauty part was watching Pete just barely miss a critical shot or two. Pete was a master.
“I’ve got five hundred dollars …”
Pete went into his big speech. And sure enough, a bunch of guys came to Eddie
and said they’d back him, and for him to kick Pete’s ass. The final game was
moving along with Eddie about to miss a critical shot by a fraction when he
heard Pete curse under his breath.
“Jeezus, Mary and Joseph!” Pete
looked like somebody had punched him in the gut.
“What is it?” Eddie stood next to
Pete at the ball return.
“The house manager is up there
talking to a guy that looks familiar. I think I saw him in Walnut Creek when we
were there last month. Oh, shit! It is
him. We’ve been made.”
Eddie looked up and saw the manager
in earnest conversation with a tall, thin man wearing a plaid jacket. The
manager stepped out from the counter and began to talk to one of the men who’d
put money on Eddie.
“Okay, kid, we’ve got to run for
it,” Pete said. “Head across the lanes to the pit area and out the back door.
My car is out there. You run for the bus station and I’ll take the car. They’ll
follow me and I can lose ’em. We’ll hook up later in Frisco. Go!”
With that, Eddie took off across
the darkened, empty lanes, heading for the back of the house, skipping over the
ball returns and trying not to trip in the gutters. Pete was right behind him,
change and keys jangling in his pants, huffin’ and puffin’, his big belly
bouncing along. They blasted through the back door and Pete headed for his car.
Eddie sprinted around the building and across Sonoma Boulevard to the bus
station. He peered through the plate-glass window of the station and saw Pete
tear out of the parking lot and onto Sonoma, heading for Highway 40 and the
bridge. Sure enough, a group came charging out the back door and jumped into
two cars. They sped off after Pete.
He waited a few minutes to let
his heart rate return to normal, then he went to a ticket window and bought a
one-way ticket on the next bus scheduled to leave. It was heading to Oakland
and he knew he could get home to San Francisco from there. He boarded the bus
and sank down in his seat. He didn’t begin to breathe easy until the bus had
crossed the Carquinez Bridge. He glanced down at his feet and realized he was
still wearing his bowling shoes. His ball, his bag, his street shoes, and his
jacket were all back at the Vallejo Bowl. And his suitcase was sitting with the
desk clerk at the Casa De.
He made it back to San Francisco
the next day. Later he heard that Pete was back in town and they arranged to
meet. Pete had ditched the posse by heading off Highway 40, through Crockett
and down past Port Costa. It was all pretty funny and they had a good laugh
over their adventure. Except for one thing: Eddie couldn’t go back to Vallejo
and he didn’t know what to do about Jodie. It wasn’t long before his dilemma
was resolved. On December 7, the Japanese bombed Pearl Harbor. A week later,
Eddie enlisted and shipped out for basic training at Fort Ord, near Monterey.
He never saw Jodie again.
Eddie called Don over to settle his
bill. When the young man returned with his change, he had a question waiting
for him: “Donnie, why doesn’t a rooster have hands?”
“Don’t know, Eddie.” Don could see
it coming again.
“Because chickens don’t have tits.” He let it sink in, then let loose his best Pete Pannel laugh and got up to
leave. “I’ll be coming through from time to time. See you later, kid.”
“Not if I see you first,” Don
mumbled under his breath.
Eddie started for the door, then stopped and stared at an empty booth in the corner. He hoped Jodie got everything she wanted: art school, a career, a great guy, a bunch of little green-eyed kids, and happily ever after. She was a great kid and nobody deserved it more than her. She deserved better than Quick Eddie Clark.
***
The door swung open and a well-dressed woman with flowing brown hair walked briskly into the Ritz. She waved to several of the regulars at the bar and they called out her name in greeting.
“Whoa, who is that?” one of the
barflies asked his friend. “What a knockout!”
“Forget it, man. The lady is all
class and she’s way out of your league.”
Don exchanged smiles with the woman
as she sat down at the bar. He scooped ice cubes into a tall glass, dropped in
a wedge of lime and filled the glass with club soda. He placed the drink on a
coaster in front of his new customer.
“How’s it goin’, Mom?”
“Good, honey. How’s your day?”
“Not bad. Hey, you wouldn’t believe
the guy I just had in here. What a piece of work! Oh, yeah…answer this: why
doesn’t a rooster have hands?”
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Wednesday, November 29, 2023
Quick
Eddie
From Children of Vallejo
The sun was breaking
through a thick gray overcast and it looked like it could turn into a decent
afternoon. Eddie Clark drove across the Carquinez Bridge, then took the Sonoma
Boulevard exit and headed toward downtown Vallejo. He had time to kill before heading
on to Napa. In fact, he had all Sunday afternoon and evening. His meeting
wasn’t scheduled until the next day. He had recently moved back to San
Francisco and been assigned a territory that extended into the North Bay.
Eddie had not been in Vallejo in
nearly twenty-five years, since November of 1941, and he wanted to check out
some places he remembered. He approached the downtown area not knowing how much
might have changed. Then he saw the old Vallejo Bowl, still standing at the
corner of York and Sonoma. A little up the block and across the street was the
Greyhound Bus station. Things had been cleaned up and painted, but at least
these two landmarks were standing. The scene of the crime, Eddie said to
himself.
He continued across Georgia Street,
the main drag of town, and up the hill to the Casa De Vallejo hotel at the
corner of Sonoma and Capitol. By God, it was still there too, and looked to be
in pretty good shape. As he passed the front of the hotel, he saw the coffee
shop inside the lobby on the street level. That’s where he’d met Jodie.
Eddie turned left onto Capitol and
found a place to park at the curb. Just down the hill from the hotel was a bar,
now called the Ritz. He pushed open the door and went inside. It was dark, but
he could tell there had been changes—probably remodeled many times over the
years. There were a handful of patrons sitting at the bar or in booths along
the wall. He sat at the bar and waited for the bartender to approach.
“Hi, what can I get for you?” The
bartender was a young man and Eddie wondered for a moment if he was old enough
to serve drinks.
“Gimme a draft,” Eddie replied, letting his eyes take in the interior
as they adjusted to the light. The bartender returned and set his beer down on
a coaster. Eddie extended his hand across the bar. “Name’s Eddie. Eddie Clark.”
The young man shook his hand. “Hi,
I’m Don.” Don sized-up the middle-aged man sitting across from him: slick hair,
slick clothes, too much jewelry. Had to be some kind of salesman. Or a pimp.
“Donnie, tell me something, when is
a woman like a good draft beer?” Eddie smirked a little, waiting for the
answer.
“Don’t know,” Don replied. He could
tell a punch line was coming.
“When she’s got a good head and
goes down easy.”
Eddie let the line sink in then let
loose a laugh that was way too loud. Don laughed too, then glanced away, a
little embarrassed. He moved away to help another customer at the bar.
Eddie sat at the bar and nursed his
beer. He was in no hurry today. He picked up a copy of the Vallejo
Times-Herald and thumbed through to the movie section. He noted that The
Hustler was back in the theaters again. Great flick, he thought. Fast
Eddie Felson, Minnesota Fats. They don’t make ’em like that anymore. Eddie
laughed out loud. That’s what he needed when he was hustling in bowling alleys,
a good nickname. How about Quick Eddie? Quick Eddie Clark. He wondered
how many people knew there were hustlers in bowling, just like pool, and lots
of other games. Any game where you could get somebody to put down a bet, there
you’d find hustlers making a living.
He remembered the sweet little
hustle he and Pete had going back in ’41. Pete Pannel! What a guy, may he rest
in peace. Pete was thirty years older than Eddie, big and barrel-chested with
his stomach hanging over his belt. Bigger than life, that was Pete. Eddie could
still hear Pete’s voice booming through a bowling establishment, challenging
anybody to bowl him for money. Then he’d bust out with that huge laugh of his.
Eddie recalled how Pete could hold
a sixteen-pound bowling ball on his palm, let it roll down his forearm, pop it
up in the air with his biceps and catch it in his hand. He saw a lot of guys
wreck their arms trying to match that stunt. Pete was a powerful man, and a
great bowler. He taught Eddie everything he knew about the game—angles, lane
conditions, how to find the groove, how to adjust—but especially how to get
into the other man’s head. Pete was a master at that. He knew just where to
stick the needle.
Bowling was a different game then.
Lane conditions were rough, the pins were heavy, lots of variables to consider.
You had to “hit ’em to get ’em” in those days. Not like today, with these
plastic-coated pins flying around like ping pong balls. Hell, in the thirties
and forties, if a bowler could average 180, he was damn good. Now guys are
carrying 210, 220 averages like it was nothing. It’s a damn circus.
Eddie looked around and he thought
about Jodie. They used to come in here for a drink. God, she was a doll! Auburn
hair, beautiful little figure, and light, light green eyes. Those eyes: that’s
what did it to you. What a doll.
He and Pete were working their
hustle down at the Vallejo Bowl when he met Jodie. He remembered how their
little game used to work. They’d pick a bowling establishment in one of the
smaller towns, well outside of Frisco. In any good house, when the league
bowlers wrapped up around midnight, the pot games would start. A bunch of guys
would get a couple of lanes, hire a pin setter and a scorekeeper, throw a few
dollars in the pot, then bowl winner-take-all.
There was nothing like it after
midnight in a good house, all the lights turned off except for the lanes where
the action was taking place. The bowlers, all kind of nervous and jumpy,
messing around with their gear. And there’d be a few people watching, enjoying
the action, maybe waiting to jump in when the stakes got high enough. Eddie
focused the picture in his mind, right down to the sign on the wall saying, “No
Gambling On These Premises.” It was a beautiful thing to see.
Well, the games would go on and the
stakes would go up. Pretty soon, guys would be tapped out and it would come
down to a couple of bowlers. Finally, all the money would go in the pot, and
somebody would walk away a little richer. By that time, the sun might be coming
up.
Eddie had seen men lose their
paychecks. They’d put up anything—rings, watches, golf clubs, pink slips—to
stay in the action, sure that in the very next game, they’d come out on top. It
was sad to watch sometimes. Unless you had an edge and knew you’d be the
winner. He never found a bowler in any one of the small towns they
worked—Orinda, Walnut Creek, Pacheco, Fairfield—who could beat him when all the
money was in. Hell, this was Eddie’s job! These other Joes had to put in fifty
or sixty hours a week on a damn shipyard or some other gig.
So, Eddie would go into a town
first, start hanging around the lanes and getting into the pot games. After a
couple of days, he’d have a reputation built up. He was good and none of these
small-town guys could touch him. Then Pete would blow in on the weekend and
start shooting off his mouth about how nobody could beat him for money. The
hometown boys would find Eddie and the match would be on. Of course, nobody
knew they were connected. So, Eddie would win a few, and Pete would win a few,
and there would be other bowlers that would be in for a while, until they
tapped out. Finally, Pete would start talking up the stakes until the pot got
nice and big. He’d be drinking beer and going to his bag for a silver flask he
carried, and he’d be nipping at that flask and getting louder all the time.
There wasn’t anything in the flask but water. He’d scare off everybody but
Eddie, and finally, all the money was in. Pete would make a few mistakes and
Eddie would win. Then it was time for Pete’s big speech.
“I’ve got five hundred dollars says
you can’t beat me again,” Pete would bellow, and he’d flash a roll of bills.
“Hell, I don’t have that kind of
money,” Eddie would say.
“What’s the matter, kid? Tell him,
guys. No guts no glory!” Pete was something when he got going.
Eddie would flash some anger then:
“You old fart, I’ve been beating your ass all morning, and I can keep on
beating your ass. I just don’t have that kind of money.”
Five hundred dollars was a fortune
in those days. But sure enough, somebody in the crowd would offer to put up the
stakes for Eddie. It could be a bunch of guys going in together, or it could be
the manager of the house. They wanted to see Eddie beat this loudmouth drunk
and make a little money in the process.
Then the game would start and Eddie
would miss a shot or two and suddenly, Pete was the winner. And that was it.
They were careful not to be too greedy. After the big finale, it was time to
make an exit. Eddie would tell the men who put up their money he’d be back that
night with a new stake, and they’d all get their money back. He’d challenge
Pete to show up and try to take him again. Of course, Pete would accept, at the
top of his lungs. What a guy, Pete!
They’d leave separately and Eddie
would beat it back to wherever he was staying and grab his suitcase. Pete would
be waiting for him in the car when he came out, and they were gone. It was a
sweet hustle, and they worked it through a bunch of small towns during the
summer and fall of 1941.
That’s what brought them to Vallejo
that November. And that’s when he met Jodie. Eddie checked into the Casa De
Vallejo—everybody called it the “Casa Dee”—then walked downstairs to the coffee
shop. Jodie was working behind the counter. They were about the same age,
mid-twenties, and they hit it off right away. Her shift was over around 2:00
PM, and he asked her if she’d like to catch a movie. He had lots of time to
kill before he went to work around midnight.
They saw a movie that first
afternoon, then had dinner together with a nice bottle of wine and ended up
back in his room at the Casa De. They made love until it was time for him to
head for the Vallejo Bowl, just down the street. Just like that, he
thought. She was a beauty.
He saw Jodie the next day, then the
next, and the day after that. He was really getting to know her. She wanted to
go to college to study art and was working hard, saving her money. Her father
didn’t think girls should go to college, so she got no help there. She was
about as nice a girl as Eddie had ever met, and smart too.
Eddie remembered his room at the
hotel, looking out on Sonoma Boulevard, with the neon light from the hotel sign
turning everything kind of a rose color inside, and he and Jodie snuggling and
laughing after making love. There was an old steam radiator near the window for
heat and they’d turn it up to take the chill out of the room. Jodie would put
her underwear on the radiator to warm up a little before getting dressed. God,
what a girl!
Well, Pete rolled into
Vallejo on Saturday and they were all set to do their thing that night. Eddie
checked out of his room Saturday morning and left his bag with the desk clerk.
His cover story with Jodie was that he sold bowling equipment, and that he had
to move on to his next customer. He made plans to come back and see her in
about a week. He wasn’t sure how he would work that out with Pete, but he knew
he wanted to see Jodie again.
First, there was business
to take care of.
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Coming soon: Part 2. What happens to Eddie and Jody? Don't miss the conclusion of "Quick Eddie."
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Friday, October 13, 2023
And Spare Them Not
Roy Combs walked
in and stood near the door, waiting for his eyes to adjust to the dim light. He
was about six feet tall with a solid build. He wore rumpled slacks and a short-sleeved
shirt that revealed powerful forearms. His hair was cut high and tight,
military style, and his expression was that of a pissed-off football coach. He
saw Max and nodded toward a booth against the wall. The men shook hands,
exchanged awkward small talk, then Max got down to business.
“So, what’s up,
Roy?”
“Okay, here’s the
deal, Max. We are gonna need you to testify.”
“What? You’re
shitting me. I told you I won’t do that. You want me to get my family killed?”
“We don’t have any
choice. The judge threw out Sonny’s confession.”
“How the hell did
that happen?”
“Sonny’s got some
young hotshot lawyer. They claimed the confession was coerced. The judge ruled
in their favor. It’s out.”
“Wait a minute…you
video tape those things, don’t you? You have it all on tape.”
Combs looked away,
agitated. “We don’t have a tape. The camera malfunctioned.”
“Malfunctioned?
Malfunctioned my ass! What did you do, Roy? You didn’t tape it. You didn’t even
try—”
“Let it go, Max—”
“You beat it out
of him!”
Combs glared at
Max, eyes blazing. “That little motherfucker spit in my face! Spit in my face,
Max, and called me a faggot. You’re damn right I beat it out of him.”
“And this is what
I fought for in Vietnam? Life, liberty, the Constitution, the American Way? So
that you can beat confessions out of gangbangers?”
“Don’t throw the
Constitution at me, old man. I served in Desert Storm. I put my life on the
line against Saddam’s Elite Guard. Don’t play ‘holier than thou’ with me.”
The bartender called
in their direction, telling them to keep it down or take it outside. They
glared at each other, both of them breathing hard, their fists clenched on the
table. Combs broke the silence.
“Look, we’ve still
got the gun. And we’ve got your testimony. The DA says he can get a
conviction.” He paused for few seconds. “One more thing…with the confession
thrown out, they set bail. Sonny and the other two are out on the street.”
Max felt sick, as
though he could vomit his beer right there on the table. He wanted to break the
longneck bottle over Combs’s head. “And what if I won’t testify?”
“Come on, Max. We
have your statement. We can subpoena you, treat you as a hostile witness, force
you to tell the truth. Or go to jail for perjury.”
Max had no way of
knowing if this was true. He stared at Combs for a long time. “You knew this
all along, didn’t you? That you’d force me to testify. You lying bastard! And
how long before Sonny finds out that I’m a witness?”
“I don’t know.
It’s in the DA’s hands. It’s called discovery. They have to let the defense
know all the evidence against him.”
“And what will you
do to protect my family?”
“We’ll do what we
can, increase patrols in your neighborhood—”
“Increase patrols?
That’s it? That’s all you got?”
“Hey, it’s all we
can afford. Our budget is cut to the bone—”
Max bolted out of
the booth and headed for the door and the parking lot. He sat in his car for a
long time, his head resting on the steering wheel, fighting for composure. He
was still there when Roy Combs left the bar.
***
It was the same
dream, over and over again, through all the years since Vietnam. Max stood on a
muddy jungle road and watched the flamethrower reach out and ignite a hut. The
flames leapt into the sky, black smoke billowed upward, one hut after another.
Women and children streamed down the road, carrying a few meager possessions,
the children crying, the women wailing. No men. Where were the men? All dead,
fuel for the inferno? Or in the jungle, watching, waiting?
This is what it
had come to in a country where you couldn’t separate the friendlies from the
hostiles, where the guy next to you died at the hands of a child with an
assault rifle, where you looked into the eyes of the people you were fighting
for and saw that sick, twisted mixture of fear and hatred. Why? Because you
were destroying their country with napalm and agent orange and carpet bombs and
your flamethrowers from hell.
The same dream,
over and over, until tonight. Tonight one of the children on the road turned
toward him and held out a plate of cookies. It was Ellie.
Max usually jolted
awake from this dream drenched in sweat, his breath coming in great gasps. But
tonight was different. Tonight he could only lie there and cry. He was awake
for a long time then, trying to push the images and the questions out of his
mind. How could he answer for the things he had done, and how was he different
from Sonny? Who was that brilliant general who said, “Unfortunately, we had to
destroy the village in order to save it”? And how many villages had they saved? He refused to remember; he would
not count them. And so the dream would come again and again.
***
The District
Attorney’s office called to let Max know the trial date had been set. Jury
selection would begin in two weeks. They would meet beforehand to go over his
testimony and prepare him for cross examination. It had taken sixteen months to
reach this point, the wheels of justice grinding away, slow but relentless.
Max was ready, at
least as ready as he could be, and he felt an eerie calm now that decisions had
been made and set in motion. His daughter and granddaughter were settled with
family in Minnesota, two thousand miles away. His house was nearly empty,
everything he owned donated or sold on this thing his daughter showed him
called Craig’s List. There were a few pots, pans, and utensils in the kitchen,
his meager wardrobe in the bedroom closet, his recliner in the living room,
along with a framed portrait of Stella on the fireplace mantle. His footsteps
echoed as he walked through the house.
He filled his days
with routine. Two mornings a week, he attended minyan at the synagogue where
he’d been a member since the mid-seventies, and he observed Yahrzeit and
attended services to say Kaddish for his parents and for Stella. He read
voraciously, went to lunch at favorite cafés, and stopped by Gordy’s for a cold
beer or two. And of course, there was his beloved garden. This year’s crop of
tomatoes had been exceptional, even by Max’s standards. He’d given away so many
that he was sure the neighbors were sick of tomatoes. Some of the rest he’d
turned into soup and stocked his freezer with plastic containers filled with
the red-orange liquid.
He had sold his
bed, and now he slept in the La-Z-Boy. Among the stack of books next to his
chair was Stella’s dog-eared volume of Tanakh
–The Holy Scriptures. In Deuteronomy 25:19, he had underlined
these words: “…you shall blot out the memory of Amalek from under the heaven.
Do not forget it!” And in I Samuel 15:3:
“Now go and smite Amalek, and utterly destroy all that they have, and spare
them not…” Amalek, who attacked from the rear, plundered the sick and the weak,
and murdered women and children.
Max would not forget.
Propped against
the wall, just behind the chair, was his Winchester 11-87. The twelve-gauge
shotgun was a relic of his days as an avid duck and pheasant hunter. Max had
given up the sport when most of his hunting buddies either died or moved away.
Now the well-maintained 11-87 stood loaded and ready, one shell in the chamber,
four in the magazine. With the trial date set, he was sure they were coming for
him.
***
The night they
came, Max was wide awake. Since the call from the DA’s office, he’d developed
the habit of setting an alarm for a little after 2:00 a.m. when the bars
closed, figuring they would get a load on before heading his way.
The old black
Honda Civic with the faded paint job and bright chrome wheels rolled slowly
past the house, circled the block and rolled by again. Car doors slammed, Max’s
signal. He turned the recliner sideways and positioned himself behind it, one
knee on the floor, the shotgun resting on the arm of the chair.
Two figures walked
across his front lawn, up to the low shrubs that grew in front of the living
room window. One of them carried a heavy tool with a long handle. They peered
in through the window, and then, unable to see anything or anyone, they went to
the front porch. A sledgehammer blasted the wooden door frame to pieces,
splitting the stillness. The door swung open and the two men moved into the
room.
“Oh, Maxie…old
ma-an…where are you?” The man in the lead called out in a sing-song voice. The
one behind him laughed softly.
Max squeezed the
trigger and the shotgun blast rocked the room. The first man flew back against
the wall and crumpled to the floor. A new shell was in the chamber and Max
pulled the trigger again. He saw a series of muzzle flashes and braced for the
shock and burn of the bullets heading his way. The shock and burn never
happened. The slugs slammed into the wall behind him. Both men were down on the
floor, moving, but just barely. Max stood up and walked the few steps across
the room. The second one through the door, the one who had returned fire, was
Sonny—Amalek himself.
Max waited, the
shotgun ready. Would someone from the Civic come running to provide backup? But
then came the sound of the engine racing as the car sped away. He looked at the
bloody mess on the wall and at his feet. Should he fire one more shell into the
chest of each man? No need. They were no longer moving.
He placed the
shotgun on the recliner and went through the kitchen and into the garage. He
retrieved a five-gallon can and brought it into the house. He would douse the
bodies and the walls with gasoline until the can was empty, then stand back and
toss a match into the room. The little wood frame house would be saved, just like all those huts and all
those villages in Vietnam.
Instead, he stood
motionless, staring at Stella’s portrait on the mantle, tears clouding his
eyes.
He set the can on
the floor, pulled his cell phone from his pocket and dialed 911. The dispatcher
led him through a series of questions, confirming his name and address, and the
fact that two men had been shot while breaking into his home.
“I’m sending the
sheriff and an ambulance, Mr. Silver.”
The ambulance
wasn’t necessary, but he didn’t argue. “Okay…and you should notify Sheriff’s
Detective Roy Combs. This is his case.”
Max traced the bullet
holes in the wall with his finger as he spoke to the woman on the phone. He
thought about Minnesota and his daughter and granddaughter. He could not wait
to be with them. Several questions played in his mind. It was late September
now: were the leaves there starting to turn color? Would they need to purchase
new clothes for the Minnesota winter? And what varieties of tomato grew there?
Sirens grew ever
louder as the call ended.
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Note: Elvira Campos of North Highlands, California, was shot and killed as she sat in the front room of her home on May 18, 2013. She was ten years old. This tale of vengeance is for her.
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Thursday, October 12, 2023
And Spare Them Not
Max Silver loved
the little piece of ground he called his tomato patch. Situated in one corner
of his backyard, it wasn’t much more than eight feet wide by twelve feet long,
but the production every year amazed him. Maybe it was the late morning and
early afternoon sun, or the yards and yards of steer manure he worked into the
soil every year. Whatever it was, from June through October the fruit just kept
coming. He loved passing out lunch bags filled with ripe tomatoes to his neighbors,
and they seemed to enjoy them as much as he did. Hey, Max, they would say, how
are those tomatoes coming? One neighbor, the house just across the street,
would turn the ripe fruit into salsa and share several jars every season.
Today he was busy
nipping and pruning and staking his thriving plants. It was late May and soon
the blossoms would turn into small green globes, and if left unsupported, the
weight would be too much for the vines to bear. The sun was nearly down on this
warm May day and he started to think about the cold beer waiting for him in the
fridge. His daughter and granddaughter were at the movies and wouldn’t be home
until well after dark. He’d be on his own for dinner tonight.
Max had lived in
the little wood frame house in a northern suburb of Sacramento for thirty
years. He and his wife Stella poured lots of love and care into the place, even
as the neighborhood began to decline. When Stella lost her battle with cancer
eight years ago, he carried on, even though the house was empty without her.
Then his daughter Marnie went through a divorce, and five years ago, Marnie and
his granddaughter Jessica moved in to fill a part of the gaping hole in his
life. Now all that love and care flowed in their direction.
He was gathering
his tools when he heard two sharp cracks and the faint sound of glass breaking.
Then two more cracks. Max was a hunter and Vietnam veteran; he knew it was
gunfire. He dropped his tools and hurried to the gate at the side of the house.
As he reached for the latch, he looked through the gate, and then froze.
A young man
wearing a hooded sweatshirt crossed the street, headed toward a car parked at
the curb, a gun in his right hand down at his side. Max could see his face
clearly. He knew this boy: a neighborhood tough named Sonny. Years earlier, he
had played on a Little League team Max had coached. Sonny was a handful then,
difficult to control, impossible to teach, an all-around nasty little kid. And
now he’d graduated to firearms. The young man climbed into the car and the
wheels screeched as it tore away from the curb.
Max left the gate
and backtracked to his patio. He kicked off his shoes as he entered the house
and hurried to the front room. The drapes were open and through the large
window he saw the house across the street and four round holes—the four shots
he’d heard—in the living room window. Now he heard screams and shouts emanating
from the home.
The screams and
shouts continued and neighbors along the block came out on their porches to see
what was happening. Sirens pierced the gathering dusk. Something tragic was
unfolding and Max was a terrified witness.
***
The neighborhood
swarmed with law enforcement. A half-dozen patrol cars clogged the street and
yellow crime scene tape stretched along the perimeter of the lot across the
way. Uniformed and plain-clothes officers moved about. Down the block, behind a
set of barricades, television trucks and their crews stood by. Max sat in his
La-Z-Boy recliner against the back wall of his living room. The house was dark.
No one looking in the window could see him sitting there.
Okay, now what?
Should he simply walk out there and tell the deputies what he had seen? And if
he did, what then? His home and family would become the next targets. It would
be like hanging a bullseye on his front room window: shoot here. His cell phone
rang, startling him so that he jumped in the chair. It was his daughter Marnie.
“Dad, what’s going
on? We can’t get into the neighborhood. There’s a line of cars here on Maple
Street and I see a sheriff’s roadblock up ahead.”
“There was a
shooting—”
“A what?”
“A shooting.
Across the street at the Preston’s house.”
“Oh my God! Was
anyone hurt?”
“I don’t know yet.
Look, don’t come home. Don’t even try to get in here. Take Jessica and go to
Aunt Millie’s.”
“But we don’t have
any clothes or—”
“It’s not safe
here, Marnie.” He could not hide the tremor in his voice. “Go to Aunt Millie’s.
I’ll pack a bag and get some things to you tomorrow.”
“But, Dad—”
Max stifled her
protests and ended the call.
The activity out
on the street continued and Max wondered what had happened and why. The
Prestons were good neighbors, never a problem. Their little girl, Ellie, was
ten years old, the same age as his granddaughter. The two girls played together
constantly, walked to school together, shared birthdays. Ellie was a sweet and
friendly child, round-faced and chubby, always smiling. She’s the one who
delivered the fresh salsa the Prestons made from his tomatoes, and she helped
her mother bake cookies for the Silvers at holiday time. Ellie had an older
brother—Max couldn’t remember his name. Was he the target? Gangs and drugs were
a reality in the neighborhood. Could it be gangbangers in some kind of turf
battle? If so, Max was not getting involved. Let them go right ahead and thin
out the herd.
His hands shook as
he called his sister’s number. Before he could tell her that Marnie and Jessica
were on their way, she interrupted him.
“Max, are you
watching the news?”
“What? No. No I’m
not—”
“There’s a report
about a shooting in your neighborhood. My God, Max, someone shot a little
girl.”
“What?”
“A ten-year-old
girl, Max. Someone shot her in the back of the head while she was sitting on
the couch watching television. She’s dead.”
Millie continued,
recapping the news report. Max could hardly breathe. Oh my God! Ellie? They shot Ellie! Oh God. The animals, the goddamn
animals. A little girl…a sweet innocent little girl.
Max ended the call
with Millie after making her promise to keep Marnie and Jessica safe. He would
bring clothes and toothbrushes and whatever they needed tomorrow. As he put
down the phone, that telltale taste rose in the back of his mouth. He hurried
to the bathroom to toss the contents of his stomach, though all he could
produce was bile. He rinsed his mouth and splashed water in his face. His
friends often told him he resembled the actor, Charles Bronson. When he looked
in the mirror now, he saw a frightened old man.
***
Max parked near
the phone booth adjacent to the convenience store. He turned the business card
over and over in his hand. The detective had handed it to him that morning at
the close of the conversation at Max’s front door. No, he had seen nothing,
heard nothing. He’d been in his garden out back. No, no one else was home at
the time. His daughter and granddaughter had been away at a movie.
All the while, Max
scanned the street behind the officer. Who was watching, timing the length of
the conversation? Just give me your damn
card and get off my porch! That’s what he wanted to say. And then the
detective was gone, the door closed with Max leaning hard against it, his heart
racing.
Now here he was,
ready to call from a payphone, certainly not from his cell that could be easily
traced. He punched in the number and listened to it ring, again and again. An
operator answered and he asked for Detective Roy Combs. She patched him through
to Combs’s mobile number.
“Hello, this is
Detective Combs. Hello?”
Max held a folded
handkerchief over the mouthpiece. “Yeah, I may have—” He stopped and began
again. “I have information about the
shooting on Chestnut Lane.”
“Okay, let me get
my notebook. Now, sir, what is your name?”
“Before I say
anything, I need to know…can you protect my family, my home? You’ve seen what
these animals will do.”
“Sir, I can’t
promise anything until you tell me what you know.”
Max slammed the
phone into its cradle, then picked it up and slammed it again and again. Sonofabitch, sonofabitch! They can’t protect
you, they won’t protect you. He climbed back into his car and drove around
aimlessly, looking for a way out, but there were no options. Max had to tell
Combs what he saw, who he saw leaving the scene with a gun in his hand. He
couldn’t let Sonny get away with it. He pulled into a service station and
parked near a phone booth. Again, the operator patched him through.
“Detective Combs
speaking. Who is calling, please?”
“Look, just tell
me you’ll try to protect my family.
That’s all I’m asking.”
“Okay, sir, this
is Mr. Silver, right? Max Silver? You live across the street from the Prestons.
I spoke to you this morning. I recognize your voice, Mr. Silver.”
Max’s heart
pounded out of his chest again. He started to hang up, but what good would that
do? “Is there somewhere we can meet? Not at my house. Not in the neighborhood.”
They settled on a
small café a few blocks away. Max hung up the phone and then used the
handkerchief to wipe the sweat from his forehead. He would tell Combs what he had seen. But he would not testify in open court, if it came to that.
No way in hell would he testify.
Sonny had been easy to find, along with the two bangers who’d been with him that night. The three of them were being held without bail pending trial. It turned out Sonny had confessed, which was good news for Max. Roy Combs assured him he would not have to testify. They had the confession, they had the murder weapon, and the District Attorney was planning to seek the death penalty. Ellie was dead; no way to change that fact. Even though the death penalty was a joke in California, at least her killer and his pals would be going away for a long time. Max hoped to see life return to normal—or near-normal—on Chestnut Lane.
So why did Combs
want to meet with him now? Were there new developments in the case? Max checked
his watch. He did not want to be late for the meeting.
_____
Coming soon: Part 2. What news does Roy Combs have for Max? And how will it change his life? Don’t miss the conclusion.
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Sunday, September 3, 2023
Eureka
A full moon hung
over the Trinity River Valley in Northern California. It made for a beautiful drive—the
moonlight on the water, the gentle slope of the canyon lined with pines, the
river like a rippling white ribbon. Ward glanced up from the winding road,
determined to print the scene in his mind. He’d never seen a picture so
perfect. He figured he’d be in Eureka around 10:00 p.m., get a room there and
take a long, hot soak in the tub and then a shower. After camping for five days
on the Trinity, a hot bath and a warm bed seemed like heaven.
He had left Jimmy in
Junction City at Pat’s place. Jimmy would be heading home tomorrow, back to
Redding and down through the long valley to Vallejo. They had fished the
Trinity hard, from Weaverville to Junction City, with nothing to show for it
this year. Nineteen seventy-three was not a banner year for salmon. That didn’t
matter. October on the Trinity was reward enough: the clear, cold mornings out
on the water, the afternoon temperatures climbing into the eighties, the air so
fresh you could taste it, and then hanging out at the bar Pat owned where cold
beer and conversation flowed like the river itself. The fishing didn’t matter.
This was his last
trip with Jimmy, Karyn’s father. That’s what mattered. Karyn was moving on and
there was no way to change that. She was in love, and you can’t fight love. You
can’t say don’t love him, love me. It doesn’t work that way. It was good
of Jimmy to plan the trip, their last hoorah so to speak. They had fished the
Trinity for salmon every fall for a half-dozen years and this trip was a nice
nod to tradition. Jimmy was a good man, damn good, and he’d been a great
father-in-law. For the five days they were together, he’d never mentioned
Karyn, never asked about the break-up. Ward was grateful. He didn’t want to
talk about it.
Ward made it to Eureka on schedule and found a room at a motel on West Fifth Street. After the hot soak and shower, he felt like a new man. He was ready to find a friendly tavern and throw back a cold beer or two. The attendant at the front desk directed him to a place a couple of blocks over, an easy walk from the motel.
Ward wasn’t
looking for excitement. He thought about turning around and heading back to his
room. Finally, he crossed the street and went inside. There were a handful of
customers at the bar and in booths along the wall. A small dance floor took up
the back of the room, a jukebox off to one side. He took a stool and waited.
The bartender was
busy with the two recent arrivals, especially the blonde girl. She was talking
loud, laughing, poking fun at him, and he was giving it right back to her. It
seemed they knew each other. She stood on her stool and leaned across the bar, showing
generous cleavage from a scoop-neck knit top, and demanded a kiss from the
barkeep. He grabbed a breast in each hand and planted a kiss on her lips, all
the while squeezing the ripe little peaches. The blonde girl found this
hilarious. What strange world had Ward stumbled into?
The bartender
broke away and came toward him. “Hey, buddy! What can I get you?”
“Whatever you have
on tap. Hey, what’s with the wild child over there?”
“Oh, don’t worry
about her.” He smiled. “Her sister is keepin’ an eye on her.”
So that was it:
little sister, big sister. Ward nursed his beer and tried to relax. He noticed the
girl glancing his way every now and then. After a couple of rounds, she was
starting to look pretty good. She was a little plump, spilling over her jeans
at the waist, but she had a pleasant face and large, expressive eyes. It really
was a nice face. You’d have to say pretty if you were being fair. She smiled at
him once when their eyes met and she had a nice smile, too. Another couple of
beers and she would look like a young Shirley Jones. The Partridge Family theme played in his head.
Ward took some
change and wandered over to the jukebox. It was a good playlist and he dropped
in a few quarters and started to punch in his picks. And then the girl was
standing next to him, bumping elbows.
“Why don’tcha play
‘Earth Angel’? I love that song.”
“Sure.” He punched
in the letter-number combination, wondering at the choice, a song from the
mid-fifties. “Anything else?”
They scanned the
columns and made a few more selections. She was very young. Was she old enough
to be in this place? He got a strong whiff of cologne, mixed with the alcohol
on her breath, and he recognized the scent: it was Karyn’s favorite. What was
it called? Emerald, or Emeraude, something like that. This girl had bathed in
it.
“I’m Ward, by the
way.” He waited for her to respond. “And you are?”
“Umm, I’m Jane.
Call me Jane.”
“Jane Doe?”
“What?”
“Nothing. Can I
buy you and your friend a drink?”
“Sure.” She led
the way over to the bar. “This here’s my sister. What’d you say your name was?”
“Ward.”
“This here’s Ward.
He’s gonna buy us a drink.”
Big sister gave Ward
a critical glance and then nodded. She had no name she wanted to share. She was
drinking club soda. Jane ordered a 7-and-7. They sat through several rounds and
chatted about nothing in particular. Big Sister kept her eyes straight ahead,
chain smoking and sipping her soda. She had nothing to say. “Earth Angel” came
on the jukebox again.
“Oh, come on,
let’s dance.” Jane grabbed Ward’s arm. “I love this song.”
They slow-danced
to “Earth Angel,” and then to two more ballads. By the third song, Jane was
wrapped around him and Ward couldn’t help but be aroused. He knew she could
feel it but she didn’t pull away. He was lightheaded from all the beer. Or was
it the cologne? As the music ended, she reached up to him, her lips parted, and
he kissed her long and deep. When she stepped back, there were tears in her
eyes.
“Hey, what’s
wrong?”
“Nothin’.”
“Come on, I
thought we were having a good time.”
“It’s not you,
Ned—”
“Ward.”
“Ward…sorry. I’m
thinking about my old man, my boyfriend. He’s doin’ six months in county. I
really miss him.”
“Sorry to hear
that.” He started to ask six months for
what? but he didn’t want to know. “Come on, let’s have another drink. Maybe
you’ll feel better.” He led her back to the bar and ordered another round.
“I really feel
bad, ya know? I miss him. He’s not a bad guy. He was always good to me.”
“Well, maybe he’ll
get out early, good behavior or something.” Ward glanced at Big Sister who gave
him a look that said Yeah, sure.
“But I feel bad,
’cause while he’s been in there, I chippied on him. I chippied on him a lot.”
Ward thought he
knew what “chippied” meant, but he wasn’t sure and he didn’t want to ask. It
was time to take a trip to the men’s room and splash a little water in his
face. He excused himself and made his way down the narrow hall past the dance
floor.
As he washed his
hands, he noticed the condom vending machine mounted on the wall. He thought
about the kiss on the dance floor and imagined taking that warm young body to
his bed. He dried his hands, dropped in the required coins and stuffed the foil
packets into the pocket of his jeans.
When he returned
to the bar, Jane was gone. Big Sis was there, chain smoking and fixing him with
a steady gaze. She turned on her stool to face him.
“Watch yourself, Ward.” Her voice was calm and cool, but
she pronounced his name like an exclamation point. She was about Ward’s
age—mid-thirties—and though her hair was dark, the resemblance to her sister
was clear.
“What?”
“You heard me.
Watch yourself. She’s just a kid, a kid with problems. The last thing she needs
is a one-night stand with a jerk like you.”
“Look, I don’t
know what you think—”
“You think it’s
going to be easy, a sure thing. Right, Ward?
You’ll just say, ‘Hubba hubba, baby. Let’s go back to my place. I’ll show you a
real good time.’”
“No, I mean, come
on…” He glanced around as though looking for help. He could not look her in the
eye.
“And what’s your
story, Ward? Divorced? Separated?
Yeah, I noticed the little tan line on your ring finger.”
He covered his
left hand with his right.
“And now you think
you’re God’s gift to wayward girls?” She punctuated the question with a wry
smile.
“Look, Big
Sister…sorry, I didn’t catch your name.”
“My name doesn’t
matter, Ward. Let’s just say I’m your
conscience, here to make sure you do the right thing.”
“Which is?”
“Leave now, while
she’s still in the lady’s room. Go back to wherever you’re staying, watch some
porn, whack off, do whatever it is that you do. And leave my sister alone.” She let it sink in for a few seconds.
“Don’t worry, I’ll tell her you said goodbye, good luck, best wishes. All that
crap.”
There was nothing
more to say. He’d been busted and he was no match for this woman. He got up off
the stool, dropped a few dollars on the bar, and headed for the door, away from
this strange encounter in Eureka.
Ward checked out
early the next morning. He popped the tailgate and tossed his bag into the back
of the compact wagon. As he stuffed his dirty clothes in among the camping
gear, he saw the shirt he’d been wearing the night before. He picked it up and
brought it to his nose. It smelled of cigarettes and cologne. He paused to play
back the events at the bar and felt the blood rush to his cheeks. Big Sister,
God bless her, had been right.
Ward sniffed the
shirt again, then closed his eyes, and just for a moment Karyn was there. She
had not been with him all week on the Trinity, but now she was. He started to
say her name, but his throat tightened. He’d lost her, and now he was out here
on his own, acting the fool.
He wadded the
shirt into a tight ball and threw it—hard—into the back of the car. His shout
became a howl, echoing through the parking lot and down Fifth Street until the
air was gone from his lungs.
It was time to
move on, time to forget, and that scent carried memories.
Sunday, August 20, 2023
FISH ON!
A real fish story
“Look!”
Frank shouts. “Straight ahead, where the birds are!” Frank, our fishing boat
captain, shoves the throttle to full ahead and we race toward what boat
captains call la mancha—the stain—an area the size of a small arena where
the deep blue ocean has been churned to a white froth. “Oh man, there are some big
tuna breaking water, feeding on the surface.”
I can’t see the tuna but I definitely see the birds circling the area and diving into the water. And then the most amazing sight of all: spinner dolphins flying into the air, turning a half-dozen rotations before falling back to the water. Until this day, I’d never heard of a spinner dolphin, let alone seen one. And yet there they are—one, two, three, and more—shooting into the air like prima ballerinas.
We
are twenty-five miles off the west coast of Costa Rica, out of the harbor town
of Flamingo. Our party consists of my daughter Cheryl and her husband Bruce,
their sons Mason and Collin, my daughter Kim, and me. Cheryl and her family
have lived in Tamarindo for more than twenty years and are involved in several
business ventures there. Kim lives in Welches, Oregon, with her husband Cliff and
extended family. It’s my first visit to Costa Rica, a gift from my five
children in honor of my eightieth birthday, and this will be a day I’ll never
forget.
Bruce
and my grandson Collin are experienced spear fishermen. Captain Frank will try
to position the boat out in front of the dolphins and tuna. Then Bruce and
Collin will jump into the water with snorkel gear and spear guns and descend
about thirty feet below the surface. The dolphins will come racing by, followed
closely by a school of yellowfin tuna. The goal is to get a good clean shot at
a tuna, after which the speared fish will dive deep, taking with it a line attached to
a float. The fish will eventually wear itself out, the float will come to the
surface, and the catch hauled in.
We
speed along with forty, fifty, a hundred or more dolphins racing alongside the
boat. Bruce and Collin are in the bow, ready to go into the water. My grandson Mason
is busy capturing as much of the action as possible via his 35 mm camera and
his trusty smartphone. He is a skilled photographer, filmmaker and editor, like a young
Spielberg. In the meantime, Captain Frank’s deckhand has rigged two fishing
poles and cast them to troll behind the boat. Finally, Frank cuts the engine
and Bruce and Collin are in the water, dropping below the surface, hoping for a
clear shot as the tuna race by.
“Fish
on!” Frank shouts. The rod nearest me bends at a ninety-degree angle and the
reel sings as the line races out. “Grab that rod, Chuck. Let it run if it’s
taking line, otherwise crank hard, reel it in.”
I
go to the rod and begin reeling. The fish makes a couple of runs and I keep on
cranking. My arm is tiring and I think about giving up, handing the job to
someone else. But call it pride or call it machismo, there is no way I
can quit. I keep straining to gain line. Suddenly the fish comes into view. I’m
winning the battle. Now the deckhand moves in, a heavy glove on his left hand,
a long gaff in his right. He grabs the line with his left hand and pulls the
fish near the side of the boat. With his right, he makes a quick move with the
gaff and jerks the fish up into the boat. It flaps wildly on the deck, blood
splattering everywhere. In a matter of minutes, the deckhand has the yellowfin
safely in cold storage, surrounded by bags of ice. Our best guess is it weighs
about sixty pounds.
Bruce
and Collin swim back to the boat disappointed. The drop point must be precise to
find the tuna schooling behind the dolphins, and this time the positioning was
off. Captain Frank idles as the spearfishermen climb aboard. All the while, the
great gathering of fish and sea birds has moved on. The captain guns the engine
and off we go, his eyes alternating between his radar screen and the horizon.
It’s
time to head back to shore and we begin the long journey home. I think about
Cheryl and Bruce and the life they’ve built here in Costa Rica. Their
entrepreneurial ventures are too numerous to list here, but the current
flagship is their property management firm: Stay in Tamarindo. If you have an urge
to visit Costa Rica, maybe catch a tuna of your own, or visit a volcanic
national park, or catch a perfect wave on your surfboard, Stay in Tamarindo has
the ideal vacation rental for you.
***
Back
home, Bruce goes to work immediately to clean and filet the fish. Collin and
Mason jump in to make it a team effort. As Bruce carves off the filets, Collin
trims and cuts them into thick steaks while Mason packs and seals them in
freezer bags. Cheryl and Kim join the team, preparing rice, green salad, and other side dishes. My job is to hoist a cold beer and offer encouragement. Later that
evening, we sit down to a dinner featuring perfectly seasoned and seared tuna
steaks. It isn’t lost on me that these delicious steaks were swimming freely in
the deep blue Pacific earlier this same day.
Through
all of this teamwork, Mason has been telling us about a documentary series narrated
by Sir David Attenborough titled Our Planet. One episode, “The High Seas,”
features a segment on spinner dolphins. After dinner, we gather in front of the
TV and Mason finds the episode we’re looking for. It is a fascinating
explanation of what we witnessed at sea.
It
turns out dolphins and yellowfin tuna feed on the same tiny species called lantern
fish, a species that thrives because it has no commercial value and is,
therefore, not hunted by the fishing fleets of the world. Yellowfin tuna follow
the dolphins because dolphins are like cowboys, herding the lantern fish
together into a compact school. The Attenborough team’s brilliant underwater
photography captures this phenomenon perfectly, the dolphins working to keep
the school together, the school of lantern fish looking like a giant balloon,
swerving and swirling, held tight by the hard-working cowboys, all the while
pushing the school toward the surface. Then, as though someone fired a starter’s
pistol, the feast is on. Dolphins and tuna attack the lantern fish in a feeding
frenzy, joined by sea birds diving from the air, creating the boil on the
surface of the ocean the fishing captains call la mancha.
As
for the spinner dolphins, according to Attenborough, they are very rare, found
primarily in two locations: off the coast of Costa Rica and around the Hawaiian
Islands. I am stunned! On a planet seventy percent covered by water, I spent
the day in one of the two places on Earth that spinner dolphins call home.
When
Sir David says goodnight, so does our intrepid crew. We’ve been up since four
in the morning, a very long day indeed. Still, it takes a while for my mind to
calm down and prepare for sleep. Every time I close my eyes, one, two, three,
or more spinners go flying into the air, and Captain Frank is shouting, “Fish on!”